I’ve been meaning to share on here how tarot readings saved my life, but I put it off because of work, priorities, so it took a back seat. Well now that I’m not working, what a better time to finally write about it.
I’ve always been curious about tarot. I would ask my sister, or a friend to do a reading for me and it never happened. When my sister gave me my first deck of cards, I was like a kid in a candy store. Still I had no idea what the cards meant and when I’m curious about something, I’m like a dog with a bone, I don’t let it go. I dig deeper and so tarot became my passion and focus.
One day I was just scrolling on my Instagram and one of my friends who I know in real life shared a screenshot of a tarot reader on YouTube. She said how much this reading resonated with her. So I was curious and I looked it up on YouTube and that’s where I found the rabbit hole of tarot readings. That video was from Mystic Moon Oracles, her name is Angela and she completely blew me away. This was back in December and that’s where I started learning more and more about tarot and what the cards mean.
I wanted to know more because I felt like I didn’t have the answers that I needed. Honestly, I felt lost. I knew that I needed direction, guidance, something! Also, I was dealing with the hardest heartbreak I’ve ever experienced in my life and I knew that I needed to do something to heal.
With these readings, I learned why things happened the way that they did with the guy I fell in love with. I also learned about twin flames and I had no idea about twin flames or twin flame journey. I bought books that talked about the twin flame journey and that’s when I realized I’m on that journey now.
Everything I’ve read about it, completely resonated with me. I remember in December, I started feeling his energy (even though we were miles away). I started having dreams about him, I started seeing 11:11 on the clock, and right when I’m writing this I look at the clock, it says 2:22.
Then in January, the synchronicities started getting out of control. It went from once a week, to several times a week to several times in one day. I felt like I was going crazy. Music would come on that would remind me of him, I would see his name everywhere and I mean everywhere. Even before I met him there were synchronicities. My last two managers at my last two jobs had his name and I got along with them more so than any other managers I’ve had in the past.
This week I uploaded my first twin flame reading video and it lasted 32:36. That’s also a synchronicity because that’s how old we were when we met. For some reason, YouTube adds one more second and it shows 32:37, but nevertheless, it’s amazing how it all coincides.
So tarot guided me on the path I’m on now. I learned about spirituality and my twin was my catalyst to awaken me. Now I see things much more differently than I did a few months ago. I’m thankful that God, the Universe showed me about this journey because now I have the knowledge.
After going through this pandemic, I was able to finally heal. It wasn’t helping me seeing him every day. I’ve been able to heal and have much needed conversations with my mother to rebuild our relationship. I’ve gotten closer to my sister because we’re both spiritually awakened. I’ve rebuilt my relationship with my good friend Princess. But most importantly, I’ve built a better relationship with myself.
I’ve learned that I don’t need anyone to make me happy. My happiness comes from within, not circumstantial to influences or others. I used to seek validation from others, I was in denial because I wasn’t aware of it. It took one of my good friends, Paul, to really help me open my eyes. Also, not caring what others think. When you are secure in who you are, others’ opinions fall by the wayside because they don’t know you like you know yourself.
I love who I am even more and my cup is full. Of course, it’s still a process to keep on that path, but I’m learning. Breaking away from old patterns can be hard, but it all starts with being aware of the narrative that you tell yourself. Are you saying mean things to yourself or about yourself? Self talk is very powerful. I’m excited where this journey is taking me.
Part of loving myself is not giving in to fear. So a few days ago, I uploaded my first YouTube tarot reading video for twin flames. I also posted a small reading on my Instagram and so many people reached out to me letting me know that my readings resonated with them. I was being so hard on myself and scared to do it until I made the decision to just do it. Now I’m like, what was I so scared of? It only confirms that fear is just an illusion.
I also got a little emotional with the feedback I received. Somehow I felt like it all came full circle. I did for them what Angela and all those other tarot readers did for me. I want to help others get to a higher vibration, to heal, to find their purpose in life.
If it wasn’t for tarot, not only would I still be lost, but I wouldn’t have grown this quickly. I fell in love with myself and working on myself can still be hard, but I’m so thankful that I have the guidance to get me from point A to point B. I learned that I was able to love another unconditionally, my twin, but now I needed to give that same unconditional love to myself.
Even if tarot is not in the cards for you (pun intended haha!), find yourself because the journey to self love is scary, hard, awe inspiring, transformation will definitely happen, but it’s SOOOOO worth it.
You are the QUEEN of your Queendom! or KING of your kingdom!
I love y’all, stay blessed and not stressed!
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